“Little Becomes Much”

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http://www.npr.org/2014/11/21/365433685/if-we-left-they-wouldnt-have-nobody

If you haven’t,  please listen to the story above. 

I am so grateful for these young men. No, there wasn’t one of my family members in the facility, but it could have been. Isn’t it something how GOD can use something in your past that the devil meant for evil, to help someone else!?!  Miguel Alvarez talked about how his parents had abandoned him. He remembered how it made him feel. That was the reason he couldn’t just leave the residents like the other employees had.

These men, one hired as a cook and the other as a janitor probably thought they were hired just to do that job, but at just the right time GOD equipped them to do the job of a whole facility from the doctors on down! These men were put there for a purpose.  This wasn’t a job they just happened to get.  GOD had a plan. All they had to do was be willing and able.

You may not be where you think you should be in your life and it is keeping you from doing what GOD wants you to because you don’t feel qualified. Did you know that my GOD is a qualifier! ! GOD doesn’t need your degree our your money in your account! He used a cook and a janitor who helped more people than they probably know. He is waiting to use you in that job that you feel is just a dead beat job and is not going anywhere. Work that job like you own the place! Maybe one day you will!

In all things I have shown you that by working hard in this way we must help the weak and remember the words of the Lord Jesus, how he himself said, ‘It is blessed to give than to receive.
Acts 20:35

The Lord will fulfill his purpose for me; your steadfast love, O Lord, endures forever. Do not forsake the work of your hands.
Psalm 138:8

I can do all things through him who strengthens me.
Philippians 4:13

And whatever you do, in word or deed, do everything in the name of the Lord Jesus, giving thanks to God the Father through him.   Colossians 3:17

For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord, plans for welfare and not for evil, to give you a future and a hope. Jeremiah 29:11

Commit your work to the Lord, and your plans will be established. Proverbs 16:3

 

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“I Will Survive…I’ve got all my life to live!”

Today wasn’t a good day. I woke up with another cold (number 5 so far this year). Because of my anti-rejection drugs I have a decreased immune system.  Every time I get sick it sends my body into a tail spin. I peeled myself out of the bed this morning.  Sometimes I wish I could go back to the days where a cold was just a cold and nothing else.  It is so frustrating!!!  It has been 14 years living with this life altering disease and it never gives me a day off; no weekends or holidays. I live with chronic pain 24 hours a day.  I have become accustomed to it. It is like a house guest that refuses to leave. Most people would never know what I go through day to day unless I told them.  I have learned to put a smile on my face and keep it moving.  There is no need to dwell on what is, if there is nothing you can do about it. Don’t get me wrong. There are days when it is just too much.There are days when I ask God why? There are days when I am angry that I can’t do what I want to. There are days I am angry that people don’t understand my limitations or my pain. Sometimes I am pleading God to give me just one day to be who I think I am in my head.

I have learned it is ok to be upset or angry in the valley.  It is suppose to be uncomfortable.  I am  not suppose to like it.  Sometimes it hurts.  Sometimes I will be sad, and wonder if I will every have a reason to smile.  If I never had valley moments I would never appreciate the good times. I would never be grateful for my good days if I never had a bad one. I would never know that GOD is a healer and a refuge in my time of trouble. Yes, I woke up in pain, but I WOKE UP. Someone else lived their last day.God is so good that even when I lose, I win! He has already given me what I need to make it through the day. Some how I have been given a strength I never new I had.  It is nothing I could have done on my own. It is all God. What I lack he fills in the gap, and renews my strength. He is the reason I can keep going. Though it may not always seem like it, God has already given me what I need to be VICTORIOUS!!

“Have you not known? Have you not heard?

The Lord is the everlasting God,

the Creator of the ends of the earth.

He does not faint or grow weary;

his understanding is unsearchable.

 He gives power to the faint,

and to him who has no might he increases strength.

 Even youths shall faint and be weary,

and young men shall fall exhausted;

 but they who wait for the Lord shall renew their strength;

they shall mount up with wings like eagles;

they shall run and not be weary;

they shall walk and not faint.”

-Isaiah 40:28-31

“But now thus says the Lord,
he who created you, O Jacob,
    he who formed you, O Israel:
“Fear not, for I have redeemed you;
    I have called you by name, you are mine.
 When you pass through the waters, I will be with you;
    and through the rivers, they shall not overwhelm you;
when you walk through fire you shall not be burned,
    and the flame shall not consume you.
 For I am the Lord your God,
    the Holy One of Israel, your Saviour.”

-Isaiah 43:1-3

Brandi 🙂

Recently I gave Shared my testimony for “They Overcame By”. Watch and be encouraged.

“For Every Mountain…”

My friend Kristen posted this on facebook. This story really touched me. Even though our diagnosis is different our story is the same.  Please keep this young lady  in your prayers.

 

(Thanks Kristen)

 

Brandi 🙂

All In His Time

 

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The other day I wrote about how I absolutely loved my physical therapy at Nesin Therapy Services and I was very sad because I would no longer be able to return due to them not taking Medicaid.  I have been putting off calling my doctor to transfer to another place all week.  Part of the reason was I wasn’t sure which facility to transfer to and wanted to ask around to see which place could even halfway compare to Nesin.  As I said before I LOVE Nesin.  They give fabulous one on one care and was heartbroken that I would have to leave and go somewhere else where I know for sure I would feel cheated.  I have been a little frustrated because I definitely need to have therapy.  Even though I have improved I still have to walk with a cane and occasionally feel pain in that hip.  I know the Lord has my back but I began to wonder why he was taking me through all these different changes. I knew there would be a testimony in this trial but I had began to feel impatient.  I wanted my prayers to be answered now.   I was like a little kid who wants to eat their dessert before dinner. You have to eat dinner first because if you have the dessert first you might become full and not eat the dinner.  Dinner has all the nutrients and vitamins that our body needs.  We wouldn’t be very healthy if we lived on desserts alone. Yes the Lord could have just fixed my problem right away, or better yet I could have just sailed through without any issue at all. If he had done that I wouldn’t have seen the blessing or had the testimony. I wouldn’t have learned the lesson.  I can’t rush him.  He works in his own time, not mine.  I wanted the dessert before my dinner.

I got a call from Nesin today. They have CLEARED  my bill and I can return to therapy on Monday! A prayer was answered in his time, not mine. God is so good!  HOW GREAT THOU ART!

brandi  🙂

“Your only the best I ever had.”

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It’s been a few days since my last post. I have been having serious joint issues and have been unable to type.  I am still struggling. I am actually typing with only one hand!! 

I really love my physical therapist. I have never had therapy like this before. They actually take out the time to really give therapy. I go in for an hour of excellent one on one care. They are not just barking out exercises but actually take the time out to actually show me what to do. They message my hip, and even though I am not treated for my knee pain they take care of that too. I absolutely love Nesin Therapy. However last week I learned that I would not be able to return. I am just so upset.  I was not told when I began that they do not take Medicaid.  I would have to pay 40 a week to continue services.  I am so heartbroken.  I now feel that any other place I go I will be cheated. I have had to have physical therapy many times over the years and never received the care I got from Nesin.  I will feel gypped going back to where I have gone before. So needless to say I am very down about it.  I am praying when I transfer back to my old physical therapist there will be a  GOD sent therapist there that is not afraid to go above and beyond for their patient and I can resume receiving the care that I have now become accustomed too.  It is always something. This new hip is really testing my faith.  From the beginning it has been a rocky road. I know there is a testimony in this somewhere; I just hope it is revealed soon so I can better understand why there are so many detours and hills I have  had to climb.

closing with my one hand and 1/2 a leg,

brandi 😦

A day in the life…with my “super cane”!

So, I was discharged from the rehab yesterday. I had another hip replacement. I have had three in all.  I had in infection in the right hip that was initially replaced in 2003 due to avasulcar necrossis. An infection was found in the right hip in November 2010 so the doctor removed it on December 16, 2010. For three months I did not have a hip on the right side. Basically I was a one legged women.  Thankfully on March 17 the infection was gone and I was able to have the right hip replaced…the third time the right hip was cut into. OUCH!!

I didn’t have too much hope of walking out of that place (the rehab center). So when the physical therapist asked me what were my goals while I was in rehab I said to walk without my walker half believing it was possible.  To my surprise I left the rehab on a quad cane which is a lot more freeing then a walker. I even got to pick out a nice and shiny blue cane though I have to use a loaner until it is delivered. I told Cornell (my husband) that once I got that cane I would be burning the streets up.   I acquainted it to being a super hero with someone elses cape. Just wait until I get my own cape…or cane.  You better watch out!! LOL

My first out-patient physical therapy is on Monday. I am looking forward to improvement where I will be able to retire my “super cane” like I have done in the past and walk unassisted with my brand spankin’ new titanium hip!  See you at the finish line.