“I Get So Weak”

Hey guys! It has been a minute since I have posted a new blog. I hope you are keeping cool in this blistering heat!  I have been trying though I am not always successful.

In the past weeks I have still  been trying to  rehabilitate this “new hip”.  My therapist feels that I am doing very well considering having my leg hacked into so many times.  I still have considerable weakness and it is taking longer than I expected for it to get back into working order which has been VERY frustrating for me.  I need to get this weight off that I have gained from those immobile and barely mobile months. Due to the weakness and the fatigue I have been experiencing my excercise plan has remained in the planning stage.  I have maybe two more physical therapy sessions scheduled and that will probably will be it.  I have to find a replacement to keep me active and work on improving my hip.  Water aerobics is the idle transition but I haven’t found one in the city that I could attend weekly that my wallet likes. The Lord knows what I need and he will provide.

Fellow Lupies, try to stay out the sun and don’t forget sun screen. UV rays  ( inside or outside exposure) are no fun neither are flare ups so protect yourself as much as you can.

Brandi  🙂

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All In His Time


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The other day I wrote about how I absolutely loved my physical therapy at Nesin Therapy Services and I was very sad because I would no longer be able to return due to them not taking Medicaid.  I have been putting off calling my doctor to transfer to another place all week.  Part of the reason was I wasn’t sure which facility to transfer to and wanted to ask around to see which place could even halfway compare to Nesin.  As I said before I LOVE Nesin.  They give fabulous one on one care and was heartbroken that I would have to leave and go somewhere else where I know for sure I would feel cheated.  I have been a little frustrated because I definitely need to have therapy.  Even though I have improved I still have to walk with a cane and occasionally feel pain in that hip.  I know the Lord has my back but I began to wonder why he was taking me through all these different changes. I knew there would be a testimony in this trial but I had began to feel impatient.  I wanted my prayers to be answered now.   I was like a little kid who wants to eat their dessert before dinner. You have to eat dinner first because if you have the dessert first you might become full and not eat the dinner.  Dinner has all the nutrients and vitamins that our body needs.  We wouldn’t be very healthy if we lived on desserts alone. Yes the Lord could have just fixed my problem right away, or better yet I could have just sailed through without any issue at all. If he had done that I wouldn’t have seen the blessing or had the testimony. I wouldn’t have learned the lesson.  I can’t rush him.  He works in his own time, not mine.  I wanted the dessert before my dinner.

I got a call from Nesin today. They have CLEARED  my bill and I can return to therapy on Monday! A prayer was answered in his time, not mine. God is so good!  HOW GREAT THOU ART!

brandi  🙂

“Your only the best I ever had.”

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It’s been a few days since my last post. I have been having serious joint issues and have been unable to type.  I am still struggling. I am actually typing with only one hand!! 

I really love my physical therapist. I have never had therapy like this before. They actually take out the time to really give therapy. I go in for an hour of excellent one on one care. They are not just barking out exercises but actually take the time out to actually show me what to do. They message my hip, and even though I am not treated for my knee pain they take care of that too. I absolutely love Nesin Therapy. However last week I learned that I would not be able to return. I am just so upset.  I was not told when I began that they do not take Medicaid.  I would have to pay 40 a week to continue services.  I am so heartbroken.  I now feel that any other place I go I will be cheated. I have had to have physical therapy many times over the years and never received the care I got from Nesin.  I will feel gypped going back to where I have gone before. So needless to say I am very down about it.  I am praying when I transfer back to my old physical therapist there will be a  GOD sent therapist there that is not afraid to go above and beyond for their patient and I can resume receiving the care that I have now become accustomed too.  It is always something. This new hip is really testing my faith.  From the beginning it has been a rocky road. I know there is a testimony in this somewhere; I just hope it is revealed soon so I can better understand why there are so many detours and hills I have  had to climb.

closing with my one hand and 1/2 a leg,

brandi 😦

Finding My Smile :)

This sing has been on repeat all day today. It was really hard to smile, but I managed a few. I have  had two rough days battling lupus fatigue and pain from my hip replacement. I have spent all of yesterday and the most of today in bed snoozing the day away.  Days like this are always hard.  I sometimes hard to fight off the guilt for not being able to do “mom” things or “wife” things.  I can’t clean my house and it really needs it. I can’t cook dinner for my family or fold the laundry that is piled up the wall. Days like this are always filled with many emotions.  I just try to keep in mine that I can’t do everything today.  I will get another chance tomorrow to make up for my limitations of today.  I know it’s hard to not think about all you have to do, and who you have to save today but you can’t be there for someone else if you aren’t  there for yourself first. ( I am typing this for myself today as well as for you.  I need to see this in front of my eyes and not just go by what I am constantly telling myself today.)

I went to physical therapy today.  I have had all kinds of therapy over the past 11 years.  I have heard different philosophes on what is best and why. This is the first time I have been to therapy and haven’t kicked a leg, had to do squats or had a thera band thrown in my lap.  Nesin Therapy Services is very hands on.  The past two pt sessions I have laid on the mat while they have massaged, pulled, pushed my hip in all kinds of directions. It is very uncomfortable, and I stress very,  but after an hour I could feel the results once I got down to walk.  It’s something I am not used to but thank God it is working.

The rest of today is still to be seen.  I am in pain right now.  I have zero energy and had to ditch my “super cane” for my wheelchair but I am pressing on. 🙂 After all I am a survivor.

 But they that wait upon the LORD shall renew [their] strength; they shall mount up with wings as eagles; they shall run, and not be weary; [and] they shall walk, and not faint.  Isaiah 40:31

Thank you to those who prayed and thought of me today. Your prayers are appreciated.

Brandi 🙂