If someone were to ask how i feel right now I would say concerned, but steadfast. Today was definitely a test of faith, but I still believe the Lord is in control. I had a kidney biopsy on my 7-year-old transplant kidney today. Though I feel fine, my labs show there is a considerable amount of protein in my urine. The doctors have not been able to find out why. The biopsy shows that I have significant scarring and is beginning to show early signs of possible rejection. The scarring is irreversible . They have decided to increase some of my anit-rejection meds and add a new medication in hopes of slowing down anything that may be causing it and try to prolong the kidney as long as possible. The positives are though my kidney isn’t ideal, they say that my function is over 60% and is functioning very well to have such significant scarring. If for what ever reason it drops down to 20% I will be put back on the transplant list. The other positive news is that my lupus is still in remission and was not the reason the kidney isn’t functioning as it should be. They want me to return next Wednesday to see how my body is taking the new milligram changes, and the new drug that they are prescribing to decrease the protein.
I listened to all they had to say, and their advice, but inside I was praying. I have been here before. I have been in a hospital bed too many times with a diagnosis that seems to leave me in the deepest and steepest valley, and each time I pray and ask the Lord if he chooses not to heal me today, just allow me to make it to see tomorrow. It has been 13 years and I am still here! They do not know my story. They don’t know how many times the Lord has sustained me, carried and kept me. They do not know I was in a wheel chair for 2 years unable to walk. They do not know how my son shouldn’t even be alive. They do not know!!! I feel like Noah right now. I have built this huge ship, loaded it with the animals, and now I am looking out the window with nothing but water as far as my eye’s can see. My family has made it through the storm, though uncomfortable there has been no casualties. I have sent out the raven, and now the dove, and I am waiting for the olive branch. He will send me that olive branch. It may not be today, or tomorrow, but it will be done!! Until then I will take my medication as prescribed and remain in prayer. This is my testimony before my testimony!! Whether he heals my kidney today, or if I must hold on until he provides a new kidney, my freshly plucked olive branch is already on the way!
Continue to keep me in prayer.